detective
while you were doing your detective work, i was unfortunately learning more about you than i ever wanted to know. but i can tell you that if you think calling all night leaving messages, trying to knock down doors, breaking my things and threatening to make me lose my job is going to change the way i feel about him, then you really are crazy. if anything, it makes me feel stronger. like he needs me--needs protection, support, love, affection, normalcy. he deserves it. it makes me want to show both of us what a relationship should be like. i'm scared still, but it makes me feel righter, if that's possible.
i feel sorry for you. i know how bad i would feel if i did something to screw this up, as new and imperfect as it is, i would still regret it. so you, one day, might feel millions of times worse. because you had so much more than i do now. i'm going to try to remember that, and try to operate in love only and not in pain if i ever have to deal with you, because you seem to be in enough pain on your own.
i feel sorry for you. i know how bad i would feel if i did something to screw this up, as new and imperfect as it is, i would still regret it. so you, one day, might feel millions of times worse. because you had so much more than i do now. i'm going to try to remember that, and try to operate in love only and not in pain if i ever have to deal with you, because you seem to be in enough pain on your own.
posted by korryne at 9:08 PM
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Love and not pain, she'll boil in her skin if ever she read those words. What right does a heathen such as yourself have to use the words of God! Vile Godless creature!
Of course your scared, and of course her outrageous and ridiculous behavior validates your feelings! Love him, protect him, support him and sweet Jesus by all means I pray you achieve that perfection in love that some large part of my is not even willing to think may exist! Just don't lose yourself in the quest to save him. Be careful and be honest and smile when you want to spit fire at her ~ you are the FAR better woman so no matter what you'll come out on top!
yep. last night i was aggrivated and didn't want to even see anyone. i was really just so tired and pissed. i didn't feel like driving home, but i was not really wanting him to come back there either, especially when he called and said he was on the way. the first time since i met him i took a bath and intentionally didn't shave, that's how over it i was. but you know, after he was there for a few minutes, i just was so glad he was there and just wanted to be all over him, i wanted him so much. and it was the best night. just that quickly i was happy. that is what is scary...
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