i could be wrong...

he is so worried about the kids. he should be. he said how do you feel about me getting custody? and i said i think that would be great for them. he said but what about you? and i said what about me? and he said do you want two kids?

i don't know why things like that surprise me. things like we have a future, like this is real. maybe i think you shouldn't say those things out loud. like you're jinxing it or something. maybe because i know how quickly everything can change. today you're thinking about your future together and tomorrow he's only your past. maybe that won't happen to us. i can imagine only him forever. wouldn't that be so wonderful, so perfect. i'm not sure if i believe in happy endings. i'm not sure what i believe in anymore. only that right now, this is perfect. and right now is it.

they will love you, he said. and i said, i've always said i wanted kids but i don't want to have them. and he said perfect. and i said but i wanted a girl. and we were getting up so i don't know for sure, i could be wrong, but i think he said, well do you want to try?