pasts

we went out for crawfish and beer. pantera. that got me talking. too much. i said did i say too much. and he said i want to know everything.

but i don't want you to change the way you look at me. and he said we both have pasts, i would change nothing, everything in your past is what makes you you. and i love you.

but i know he was upset to think about it. and i hadn't thought about that stuff in years. and i could remember whole scenes, holograms in my mind. overwhelming memories, overwhelming in the sense that i can feel exactly what i felt at that moment, uncertainty, embarrassment, mixed with something else...