my secret

i feel like i'm the only one who really knows you, he said, i feel like you're my little secret.

this is me, now

this is how i know that i love you: my heart broke when you looked at me like that and said, are you trying to aggravate me?

this situation has made me do one thing i never ever wanted to do, depend on you to make me ok.

this week

can i say that while everything, every single thing has changed, it feels like nothing has. i've lost nothing. you are my everything, you are my home, you are my safety. can i say that i love you no more and no less for all of this. i love you the same as if we were at home in our apartment right now eating macaroni and cheese and drinking a beer. i love you the same as if we we had slept curled up together in our bed every night this week.

you have been so kind to me this week, through tragedy that i've never even dreamed of. you've been so compassionate, so loving, so understanding, so helpful. you've been my strength, you've let me lean on you. you've taken care of me this week, taken care of all of my physical, mental, emotional needs, and still you've made me feel equal, like it was ok, like you needed me just as much as i needed you. for that, for everything, i love you.